Okay. This is not an emo rant or another complaint on something or a whatever. I am trying to not writ that much too.

Sometimes I wonder why I am so...sentimental or emotional? is that the right word because I never used it before other than sentimental rock. haha.

I am going emo and crying everytime I think back to what i did and what i will do. Like, sometimes I wonder why my room is so messy and why I never cleaned it up, or is it my fault that my room gets messy again after i tried cleaning up. Maybe life will be better if my life is cleaner. and stuff... I know you don't get me. And then suddenly this feeling that everyone and everything i know will die or vanish or break one day. And then I start crying.

yeah...like. One day, when I am older, I will probably be 40 years old and my mom will be an old grandma and someday, anyday, she'll just be gone forever and I'll never be able to talk to her anymore. And all my beloved mangas and my little blanket that I had since i was born will be destroyed and no one will care. And this makes me wanna stay close to my parents until I can't see them anymore. And about the blankets, I sometimes stow them away carefully, thinking that I have to keep it in a good condition as long as possible, but should I be thinking that way? Like, instead of stowing it away and keeping it in perfect condition, should I be taking it out and spending more time with it until I can't anymore?

And I have no idea why this idea relate to this, but some of my friends I met before will never appear infront of me again. Like... Taisei, he doesn't have an email or anything that I can get in contact with him, but now all I am thinking is hope he goes to HPA next year. And if he doesn't, all I'm left with is a little coral he gave me at the beach. and its junk but I'll never throw it away and my life will be filled with junks from all my other friends and i'm not going to throw it away.

I just don't get it, is it only me or everyone else have these weird moments? I realized that I am always thinking about the future and the past that It makes present emo... and this started since I was 3 years old, I cried every nap time for thinking that my parents and my friends will disappear and life is just sucky that I want to end it right before I see everyone disappear.

These feelings are my weakness...I dunno why but thinking of this, it makes me as emo as ever and I am crying (right now). I know that in anime, they keep on saying something like: Because life is limited, that's why they live to the fullest and the happiest and stuff like that. But for me, it won't work, because my life is basically the same with everyone else. And when your life is only at the age of 13, you think that there are so much left that you also think, I can do these anytime later, and later, you regret you didn't do it when you were young.

Okay. This is becoming a rant. I'll leave more for next time.

p.s. i bought d.gray-man 11 right after it came out of the box XD it was still warm haha.

btw, sorry ppl, i gotta stop some of the deviations coming to me from the ppl i watch, sorry. I'll return it back to normal after i get on often again.

TAS ppl (or ex) and friends in real life:

SORRY EVERYONE! i thought that i can get my computer back earlier but now its been months....like... 3 months? i dunno... i don't think you will even wanna read this...its filled with "..." bad habits...hahaha .....time yourself if you want to

BTW!!! The stuff about last week or on Friday or 2 weeks ago or stuff like that are all shit now…..cuz its been months since I typed that….. and fuck my usb….I saved this thing on my usb when I went to Hawaii and lost it….so now I have the half-done version instead of the one I wrote there…….fuck

LAST WEEK!!!! was really weird....and i don't remember what and when we did....except on Wednesday, we were suppose to have chinese culture club...but then because a bunch of people got the location worng, so we cancelled it....and i RAAAAAAAAAAAN to the Animanga club. I was planning to skip CCC for some times too... hehehe....im bad...as the president of CCC...how can i skip!? ANYWAY!!! In animanga club, we all dress up as the character we are gonna cosplay at the spring fair...and guess what!? I did Rukia from Bleach....AND EVERYONE ELSE IS SOOOOOO GOOD!!!!! ~Ichira did Ten Ten and you should just see how cute she was!!!! haha....and all the other people in animanga did such a cool job. we got our pictures taken and stuff on wednesday....i was sooooo DAMN happy that CCC was cancelled!! HAHA....I'm weird....

And the parts that involves core classes are just fucked up so don't make me tell you how much homeowork we had and how i was dying.....seriously....when one of the classes gives only a little homework, every other classes gives less homework too...and when one of the classes gives a lot of homework, we are flooded with homeowrk from all the classes in the world...sigh....school is just WEIRD!!!!!!

ON FRIDAY!!!! WOOHOOOOOOO!!!!! It's the middle school play: NO STRINGS ATTACHED!!!! A story of Pinocchio!! I was gonna help eileen on a spring fair poster or something after school, but she ditched so oh well... then Timcanpy came and asked me to stay with her....so I DID!!!! it was prety fun staying with her and stuff....I realized we have so much in common....okay...i sound like im talking about a boyfriend or something...NO!!!! TIMCANPY IS A GIIIIIRL!!!!! kk....got that straight....hahaha.....we stayed and chatted in McDonalds and we strolled all over the place...hehehe....But when it was 6:30, she had to leave because she is in the Pit Band for the play. OH!!! And when Timothy was walking down the spiral staircase to the 2nd floor, his pants fell RIGHT OFF!!! as in....fell to his ankle, right outside the BIIIG window, and Mr. Abernethy and Mrs. Funke were right there......HOLY!!! IT WAS HILARIOUS!!!!!

When Timcanpy left, Alex Yu called me and asked me to go to Haggen Daz....he said Julia, Z, eric lee, and himself were there and asked to to hang out with them. I went because i had to buy dinner for Amanda as well. When i was on the way, I saw Tiffany, Rebecca(or however you spell it) AND JULIA!!!!! and julia said she wasn't even with the guys....but i went anyways....and when i got there....there were only Z and Alex...and i was like WTF!!?? an so i just sat with them and did nothing.... and they were completely perverted and weird and dumb. I went to buy takoyaki for my sister later and they followed me....-.-|||....

I snuck the takoyaki into the auditorium and gave it to my sister....and stuff....I was gonna sit with Tiffany but i guess i ran out of seats so TOO BAD TIFF!!!! wahahaha....so i decided to sit with ~Aitania and ~Ichira but then, ~Ichira's ticket got freakin' stolen by the freakin' CHIPMUNK!!!! RAWR!!! OBERT!!! I SWEAR I'LL ??????GRRRAAAARRRR!!!!!!.... lame ass......

THE PLAY WAS AWWWWEEEESSSSOOOOOOMMMEEEE!!!!!!! seriously, even though there are some mistakes and stuff, it was the best play so far that i've watched....!!!!! I love the part when Pinocchio did the moon walk..!! IT'S SO COOL!!!! And Jen, you are great! Timcanpy! The pit band sounded great! Katherine, ?????? and for who ever I missed out, GREAT JOB!!! i really liked it and i WILL buy the dvd...I SWEAR!!! XD

SATURDAY!!!!! is spring fair....the cosplay day for us, animangans....!!! YAHAY!!!! I thought i was later when i woke up late...hehe.... and then my mom wouldn't let me leave the house if i didn't eat a "formal" breakfast and stuff like that....and it was already 8:40...and i have to get there at 9....and so i just stuff everything down my mouth and throw it all up in the toilet...I KNOW!!! IM WASTING!!!! but still....its bad....and i left....arrived at the fair at 9:15 am or about that time....and helped pinning the poster onto the booth....WHAT A PAIN!!!! keeps on fallin and stuff...and then we gave up and pinned it on the table so it hangs low....haha

Okay….the above part of the journal was written months ago, and I just got back my comp….TT.TT MY PREEECCIOOUS!!!! Hisss….okay… I’ll start from here:

Now it’s summer vacation and im happy… you know…..sleep at 4 am and wake up at 2 pm….muahahaha….. a lot of things had happened at school (during the construction of my room)

We read To Kill A Mockingbird….out of the books we were forced to read in our classes, TKM is counted as good….

Anyways….I forgot the rest of what happened….so yeah…….

The last week of shool was really fun…

Monday: WE FINALLY got our yearbook, and for once, the yearbook looks cool! XDD we basically spent our whole day signing them…hahaha …. I skipped P.E. MUAHAHAHAHAHA

Tuesday: We had a floor party, nothing much to say, I sat there, watching and some boys playing HALO on Xbox….and I read manga, played cards, and the stupidest of all, I WAS DOING SUDOKU!!!! Holy…..I hate myself for not bringing my DS….i almost suicide…..Later, We had this movie crap….and it was just plain dumb. And we were squished in the small auditorium….because somehow, the big auditorium is taken…..and I had no interest in the movie, and the teachers sasid we cant sign yearbooks and we cant use our ipods and we can’t do ANYTHING other than WATCH!.....sigh….I snuck my manga in…. and , and :iconsadisticpyscho: hid behind the curtains…but the freaking’ Mrs. Bragget shooed us out…DOOOOOOOOOOD!!!!! Mrs. Old-woman is such a racist person, I was reading manga, and she told me to keep it shut and watch the movie, while Katie was reading a book right in front of her……FREAK!!!.I should’ve just skip the movie by not even going to the small auditorium……sh….anyways, I had a BIG locker clean out….and it was REALLY messy. :iconsadisticpycho: asked me to bring some of her mangas home, because her mom will rip it if she finds them…so I did… I brought her D.Gray-Man series home…..last year, same thing happened, but I brought 3 times as much as this time, her Yu-Gi-Oh and her Fullmetal Alchemist, and some other random ones….haha

Wednesday: This day is the ACC swimming day, I was gonna go, but I decided not to, cuz I don’t want to swim…haha…even though it’s a good time to spend with the friends that are leaving…. Sigh Instead of going to ACC! WE WENT TO THE ANIMANGA TRIP!!!! HAHAHAHAHA! (we as in :iconichira, , and ME) hahaha… it was really fun, the high school people first took us to 3 manga stores that are close to each other, and I bought the first book of Organic Romeo, Jigoku Shoujo (just to try it out), first book of 666 Satan 9try it out), 3rd and 6th of Moe Kare. Then later, we went to Moe Moe Center, which immediately became my heaven and my most-going place…. We ate lunch at Moe Point, it’s a maid café, the food is pretty good, the maid outfit is pretty good, but I think the maids are ugly….haha…sorry…. Moe Moe Center sells everything related to ANIMANGA!!! Holy! The sell cosplay stuff, wigs, models, doujinshis, manga, dvd, cd, posters, folders, accessories! Omg omg omg omg omg…..haha….too hyper…. At Moe Moe, I bought the rest of the Moe Kare, some folders. At Animate, I brought 2 rated yaoi mangas…haha….and a Loveless plastic poster thing….. After Animate, due to the weather, the Animangans cancelled the sun-set trip, so we parted, Jeniffer, Joyce and I stayed at Shi Men Ding for a longer time, we went to the gothic store, and some others. Jen got into a weird situation when a woman asked her to buy a ring that Jen actually wanted but could not afford, the woman cut down the price to 500 and jen only had 200 haha….and she was telling the woman that it’s okay, and that she’ll come back later, and the woman made her stay, so I was like WTF!? And I took the ring….haha…… Later, I stayed in jen’s house until 10…

Thursday: Okay….this day was messed up…..My mom thought I had no school so she didn’t wake me up…I slept until 9 and I jolted awake….haha….i was like WTF!? Am I in the nurse? Lol and then I went crying (as usual)….at 12:30, I arrived at school, so I can meet up with my friends and ready to go to KTV, it was a sad day, everyone cried…I CAN’T BELIEVE ANDREW IS LEAVING!!!!! TT.TT but it was also on this day where I went floating…haha…chuu…. We ate lunch in a 7-11….lol cheapass…..well, everyone ate lunch, except for me and Rebecca, we ate ice-cream…..and that is one of my stupid talent…haha….I can eat 3 ice cream while Rebecca eats one…. Lol….The Ktv was okay, this is my first time. I didn’t sing much, I basically just sat there and finish up my essay for Andrew…lol….but I did sing….only a little, I sang the Invisible Wings and some other chorus of other songs…..Eric Z showed up too….their room is 3 floors above ours…. Oriana, Cenga and I wanted to scare them, eric told us his room is 135….and so when we got to 135, Oriana popped in and screamed HAALLOOO! And then the men inside stared at us and went WTF!? Haha…wrong room….so embarrassing but yeah…. And later, judging from the noises, we found Z and his crew in 136……hahaha…… I went to look at them, and then instead, Z locked me in the bathroom….-.-|||….he is just weird….. When I got back to our room, Stanley had a tantrum because someone cut the song he wanted…..haha frances cheered up, Rebecca same….Andrew going high…..haha…I cried again there, because Andrew is leaving…..yeah……I know….im bored…..

SINCE I LOST MY USB!!!! I’LL MAKE EVERYTHING SHORT!!!!

And then for the first two weeks of summer vacation, I went to shi men ding like……..8 times or something….and we went manga shopping again and now my closet is overflowing with BL/Yaoi mangas hahahahahaha

The day i went to hawaii. I got a Wii...finally the first popular video game i own! XDD but too bad... my dad bought thejap version and then went and do something to it...now i can play pirated games.....sigh....to tell the truth, ALL the games i own are all copied from my dad's friends....sigh

Then I went to Hawaii Prep Academy….its really fun, a lot of things happened there. I met some friends I knew from 2 years ago. And some changed A LOT some stayed the same. We were going wild. We started having an ear pierce thing. And then we started piercing the Japanese ppl’s ears with a needle, a lighter, a dis-infection thing and an eraser….haha….it was fun but it looks painful. I found the perfect person to be my big brother there….but too bad he can’t be my brother. He is really nice though, I really like him (ahem as a brother).

The end of the summer school was pretty weird… 2 years ago, I cried like crap, but this year, I managed to hold back my tears. That is very interesting, because I am a very emotional person and If I can stop myself from crying when I feel like crying….its a miracle hahahhaaa……oh well…

I’M NOT GONNA RANT ABOUT my classes and my friends….unless you ask me to…. *smirk*

Coming back to taiwan is hard. You can’t do anything fun here….. most of your friends are in an unknown place…. Its hot and damp here….its freakin’ stupid. Once you come out of an air conditioned building, you start swearing…it’s like suiciding to get out of your house……my god…

Yesterday and I mean yesterday, I went to watch a movie with eric z and frances. Harry Potter 5 yeah….overall I think it’s not THAT good comparing to the others. I think its kinda short as in feeling short not the time…I dunno the time haha…. But yeah, this whole movie is to prove that voldemort is back…but we all know that already….. yeah…

OH! and i lost my retainers for the 3rd time...another 6000 NT is gone. (That's 22,040.802 Yen, or $182.586, or 132.184 Euro)!!!!

Now you finished the short version of this….tell me the time….
or Now you never finished this rant, comment!! *grin*



TAS ppl (or ex) and friends in real life:

AHH....I'm sorry I'm not on these days...i swear...once i get my computer back...I WILL CHECK EVERYTHING IN THE DEVIATION BOX!!!! AND ALL THE MESSAGES... there are currently 753 deviations...and only 18 messages.....wow.....dunno if i can actually check all those.....OH!! AND I SWEAR I WILL UPDATE YOU GUYS WITH A LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG JOURANL RANT!!!! longer than you've ever read....XD seriously...its been sooooo long.......

[edited] because i misssed some problems...
I RE-UPDATE THIS BECAUSE I GOT TAGGED AGAIN AND AGAIN....AND TO SHOW I AM STILL ALIVE!!.......sorry to bother.....

If you go over 45, you're a bad influence.
If you go under 15, chances are you live under a rock and have no life... even more harsh.

Rules
*Total the number of things in each list you've done.
*No need to say which ones.
*If people really want to know they will grow the balls to ask.
*If you got tagged, tag at least 3 people on your watch list.

[x]1. Smoked (once... didn't know what it was )
[x]2. Consumed alcohol (my dad told me try..... )
[x]3. Slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex (brother.....and dad)
[x]4. Slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex (duh...AMANDA IS STUPID!!! XD sleep overs)
[x]5. Kissed someone of the same sex (loooooong ago...an accident...)
[ ]6. Had sex (BLEH!)
[x]7. Had someone in your room other than family (friends....)
[x]8. Watched porn (got forced by me retarded cousin... it doesn't count...RIGHT!?)
[ ]9. Bought porn (like....I DONT'T EVEN WANNA WATCH IT!!)
[ ]10. Done drugs (im not weird...well..i AM...but not THAT weird...)
TOTAL: 7

[x]1. Taken painkillers (yeah...duh...)
[ ]2. Taken someone else's prescription medicine (nope)
[x]3. Lied to your parents (sometimes...things just dont work out...)
[x]4. Lied to a friend (GOMEN!!!)
[x]5. Snuck out of the house (once or twice....)
[x]6. Done something illegal (underage drinking....)
[x]7. Cut yourself (once or twice...6th grade...)
[x]8. Hurt someone (I WANNA KILL MY COUSIN...GRR...)
[x]9. Wished someone to die (cousin.....)
[x]10. Seen someone die ( I LOVE YOU GRANDPA!!!)
TOTAL: 9

[x]1. Missed curfew (traffic jam...)
[x]2. Stayed out all night (New Year's Eve..)
[x]3. Eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself (when it was 114 degrees F...)
[ ]4. Been to a therapist (nope )
[ ]5. Been to rehab (no)
[x]6. Dyed your hair (my sister dyed t for me!! )
[ ]7. Received a ticket (i don't drive or anything...we)
[x]8. Been in an accident (uh...like...A LOT!)
[x]9. Been to a club (my dad wants my sister to take me there! weird dad huh!? i used my sister's friend's id....)
TOTAL: 6

[x]1. Been to a wild party (if you count hyperactive freaks party...)
[ ]2. Seen the Mardi Gras (huh!?)
[ ]3. Drank more than four beers in a night (record is 2 cans only...)
[ ]4. Had a spring break in Florida (nope)
[x]5. Sniffed anything (don't do drugs....well...i sniffed my clothes if it's tinky or not...)
[x]6. Wore black nail polish (once...Amanda wanted to try it out on me)
[x]7. Wore arm bands (yesh....and ichi...if that one counts...)
[ ]8. Wore t-shirts with band names (nope...)
[ ]10. Own(ed) a 50 Cent CD (limewire rules!)
TOTAL: 4

[x]1. Dressed gothic (sister trying out things on me....like...make up play...)
[x]2. Dressed prep (same...)
[x]3. Dressed punk (sister trying it on me again)
[ ]4. Dressed grunge (nope)
[x]5. Stole something (stole something back that belongs to MEE!!!)
[ ]6. Been too drunk to remember anything (never been drunk before...)
[x]7. Blacked out (sometimes...)
[x]8. Fainted (once or twice...too hot...)
[ ]9. Had a crush on a neighbor (i dont even know them...)
[x]10. Had someone sneak into your room (*beep*ing sisters!!...)
TOTAL: 7

[x]1. Snuck into someone else's room (Amanda's...to get my pajamas...)
[x]2. Had a crush on your best friend (uh....if *ahem* counts...)
[x]3. Been to a concert (this is a bad influence!? wen to my friend's ochestra concert...)
[ ]4. Dry-humped someone (WTF!!?? like i would.....psh!!!)
[ ]5. Been called a slut (nope....im too nice....jkjk...)
[x]6. Called someone a slut (yeah...the girl in the lezbo movie: Spider's Lilies...)
[ ]7. Installed speakers in your car (...i dont have a car...)
[x]8. Broken a mirror (Im a clumsy ass....)
[x]9. Showered at someone of the opposites sex's house (yeah... like... a lot of times...one of them is a pretty bad memory...>.<
[x]10. Brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush (ACCIDENT!!!)
TOTAL: 7

[ ]1. Consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper (WHO? )
[x]2. Been to an R-rated movie in theater (nope...saw broke-back mountain on the plane!! )
[x]3. Cruised the mall (never like shopping much...but yeah...)
[x]4. Skipped school (skipped classes...yes...school...uh...same thing!!)
[x]5. Had surgery (once...internal organs disorder thingy...IT'S ALL KARATE'S FAULT!!!)
[x]6. Had an injury (MILLIONS!!! I BRING BAD LUCK!!!)
[ ]7. Gone to court (...no...)
[x]8. Walked out of a restaurant without paying (my parents pay...)
[x]9. Caught something on fire (hehehe.....HW......FIRE!!!)
[x]10. Lied about your age (yeah....when I'm online...)
TOTAL: 8

[ ]1. Owned/rented an apartment ( my mom might get me one near school!!! but not yet...)
[x]2. Broke the law in the police's presence (yes...when i was 4, i didn't know we had to have our seat belt on in the US...so i actually waved at the police and said hi....and my dad got a ticket....hehehe -.-|||)
[ ]3. Cheated on someone (I did? never knew....)
[x]4. Got in trouble with the police (yes...I'M INNOCENT!!!)
[x]5. Talked to a stranger (duh yes...Can you please tell me what time is it?)
[x]6. Hugged a stranger (thought it was someone else...)
[x]7. Kissed a stranger (okay...after jen said something about greeting....i did...)
[x]8. Rode in the car with a stranger (uh...Almost got kidnapped....when I was 6)
[x]9. Been harassed (Kinda...BAKA UNCLE!!!!)
[x]10. Been verbally harassed (heh...)
TOTAL: 8

[x]1. Met face-to-face with someone you met online (nope...Baka uke....i knew you online before i saw u in school)
[x]2. Stayed online for more than 12 hours ( I'm a computer addict.)
[x]3. Talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight ( my phone bill record is 7000nt....which is around $212...)
[x]4. Watched TV for 12 hours straight (yep! )
[x]5. Been to a fair (SPRING FAIR COMING UP!!! WOO HOO!!!~~)
[x]6. Been called a bad influence (Z!!! I'LL KILL YOU!!! GRR....)
[ ]7. Drink and drive (i never drink AND drive...but i did drink....and i did drive....)
[x]8. Prank-called someone (HAH! Who didn't? Hello...this is pizza hut, our new special pizza orders are...)
[x]9. Laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex (siblings...uncle...AHEM!!!)
[x]10. Cheated on a test (hehehe...)
TOTAL:9

Grand total: 65..........NOOOO!!!!!

Eric....I guess...you...are....right....!!!!
but alot of questions in this thing is weird....like...going to a concert...psh...sigh....65


Tag whoever wanted to do this....

P.S. Sorry i can't type a new entry this time....I finished it on word doc already but its on my other comp and its in my room....which is under construction....

WOO HOO!!! i got tagged...dunno why im hyper though...


TYPE YOUR FIRST NAME WITH YOUR...
1.FINGERS: Michelle (easy!)
2.CHIN: mioc vhbelol;e3 (demented...)
3.ONE FINGER, EYES CLOSED: michekke (L typo)
4.ELBOW: michelle (YAY!! PERFECT!!)
5.NOSE: michhelle (close enouch...)

1.) List Four fandoms you have.
Animanga
Games
Yaoi
Friends

2.) Have you ever slept in the back of a car?
duh....yes

3.) Have you recently dyed your hair/cut it?
uh...kinda yes...like 3 weeks ago, hair cut

4.) List four people that you look up to the most.
Friends?
~Ichira
~Aitania
~xxweigrafxx
~ginger-paw
(AAHH!! I CAN GO ON FOREVER!!! SO I WILL)
~Love-Alchemist
~roronoa467
AND A BUNCH OF PEOPLE!!! PEOPLE I WATCH!!! XD

5.) How many pets do you own as of now?
none.....


6.) Which do you prefer white or black?
Blaaaaaaack is a cool color

7.) Who is your most played character?
-.-||| uh....i dunno

8.) Choose one or the other, not both:
[x] Being stuck on an island with your best friend.
[ ] Being stuck on an island with 5 acquaintances.
(cuz if you are stuck with the 5 acquaintances, it means they are stuck on the island too...right?..I'm not making any sense...lol...so i rather have friends)

9.) Name three aspects that tell who you are.
lazyass
weirdo
hyperactive-emo (ahem...)


10.) If you could have a power what would it be?
shape-shift....WHHEEEEE!

11.) Who was the last person you talked to?
~roronoa467 on msn.....cuz i did not speak since yesterday um.....5pm?

12.) Who was the last person you said "I love you" to?
I dunno.....kevin? for helping me sooo much on my homework....lol


13.) Write down the first five words that pop into your head
YAY!!
HIHI
setsunasa no (Michiyuki lyric....listening to it right now)
DUCKY!!!!
RAWR!!!



14.) What's one thing you wish you could do better?
EVERYTHING!

15.) Do you like the way you are?
hell no...

16.) Choose, Summer or Winter:
winter...can't stand heat....I'll meeeeellllllllt.....

17.) Choose, Rain or snow:
Snow...is fun! rain...is boring!

18.) Water or ice?
Ice water!! lol....i get hyper by drinking ice water!!

19.) List two odd things about yourself:
I get hyper by getting cold!
I cry VERY VERY often....weird...don't even know why i was crying about....


20.) Now tag 5 people who should do this quiz!
~xxweigrafxx~karomi~divhysteric~suzume-kuroshinju~queen-of-randomness8